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Oct. 3rd, 2014 10:32 pm
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 Do you ever feel like you sell out to being practical?  The teacher I worked with before I left for England texted me and let me know the county was going to allow her to get another parapro (which is what I was) and would I like the job. I said yes and have been feeling like a bit of a sell-out ever since. I went to the interview today, which was a formality and basically starting this Monday I'll be back at the school. On one hand it is income and insurance and I feel better about being a productive member of society and not just freeloading off my mom, but the other hand says I'm taking the easy road and a slippery slope back into routine and not the direction I wanted to go in. I'm worried that it will compromise my ability to get a job I want, of course the job market for film is an up and down one at best. I do not think my soul could bear taking a retail job again, especially not near the holiday season, I'm not missing important moments with my family, we have so few of them as it is in life. I don't really expect you to have answers for me I just want to say what I'm feeling, maybe it'll help in some way to keep me to my goals, I've changed a lot in this last year. I’ve  grown stronger I hope and more determined but I know my weaknesses, I'm like a cat when it comes to routine I don't always adapt well to change once I get settled. :)

Help me not to settle remind me of what I want to do, even though it’s scary and even though I often think I’m not good enough.  Push me please, I don’t want to give up on what I want, but I know I’ll need reminders. I am continuing to send out my CV and try for internships, but I worry that I'll stop, or silliest of all I'm worried I'll succeed.

 

Date: 2014-10-05 02:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] penwiper337.livejournal.com
Honestly, one of the bravest things in the world is doing what's ordinary and everyday at the expense of your dreams, even if only for a little while. People make a lot of fuss about starving artists who pursued their dreams at the expense of everyone else, but I've got a lot more respect for the people who compromised on their dreams in order to be basically good, sensible people.

But taking a day job is pretty much a given until you get established in the entertainment industry, I think. Look at all the actors who work as waiters and taxi drivers! Just keep on applying, and keeping your eyes open for opportunities, and maybe get involved in any local indie stuff you can. I know you're awesome!

Date: 2014-10-19 02:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bonnie-halfelvn.livejournal.com
I work as an accountant. I went for the practical because I had no desire to be a starving artist. In retrospect, I don't have the right mindset, or the discipline to be an artist full-time.

I've always kept my creative endeavors on the side, sometimes making money at them, mostly spending it. It has kept me from hating doing any of the creative things I do.

I think some artist types cannot hold a "real job" because they go stir crazy. It's not a healthy environment for them.

It may not be what you wanted to hear, but if you are the type who can work a steady job, you should probably do that, if only for a time.

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